Is it coming back?

Mungkin ini #hormonbicara atau apa lah itu. But after months of not having this feeling, I start sensing it's crawling back! Depresi...kecewa...tertekan....sutris....gila....mau makan orang...apa pun lah nama nya itu....

I need my sanity back!

This is for you, my pren :)

We once said, work as if you work for God. And that's become our "tagline".
We stop whining, we stop being negative (most of the time), we work harder (not smarter --;;), we still complain and we can't stop being "stupid". But one thing for sure, we care of our work.

For years, we kinda used to the situation when we address each other as "kena mental" *ngikik*
For years our sanity is questioned (most of the time...by ourselves *hopeless*).
I told you this morning, "Kewarasan jauh lebih penting", and I mean it. (as if we still have the luxury called "kewarasan").
We used to "nge-babu" with pride (I am still now), babu-ing proudly. From booking a meeting room, take care of projector, ordering drinks, thousands of minutes of meetings, meeting pake baju penganten...No matter what, at the end of the day, we are happy. In your words, ngebabu with achievements *luv this*

Based of all above, now I am telling you, loud and clear:
You are not a quitter
You totally absolutely with no doubt 100% HAVE to feel happy of what you are doing
You have to feel content
You have to be allowed to be stupid (sometimes) and noone should judge you by the size of your brain!! #lho??? *mati lu*
And most importantly, you have to be GORJES!
Now, do anything you have to do.

*ngos-ngos* *ambil nafas* *bengek*

Selesai! (kenapa kyknya gw marah2 yah? hihihihihii)

Which part are you?

So, I am getting tired of all the negativity and whinings around me these days.

I know we need those kind of people who always critize and wearing their black hats. But seriously, at one point of your life, you just can't help to punch them in the face.

Especially the ones who keeps complaining, being negative, seeing all as problems and nothing is good enough for him/her.

If you are not part of the solution, you are part of the problem!

So, you decide, which part you wanna be. Period!

(Finding) the reason to fall in love (again)

Jangan pada sotoy yah baca judulnya. Ini bukan soal cinta2an ala abege, bukan soal falling in love again sama pak suami juga (kan sayah in loph eperidei sama pak suami...*tersipu-sipu* *silakan muntah*)

So, this is about, falling in love all over again with my job, my worklife.
Gosh, it has been a rocky year for me and these couple of months I realize that I actually in the searching of reason(s) to fall in love again. Work wise.

I am writing this one day before my 9th anniversary with this company/group. I have been soooo freakin' lucky to get the chance to see the world and work with various people in various position. Not many company can give you this opportunity. I know!
Along the years I have to admit, despite of the ups and downs, I can say I loveee (or at least trying my best to love) all the jobs I performed. Even at the lowest point where you were beaten up so badly (sampe kena mental - istilah kerennya), still love is in the air (yaakkk mari muntah bersama).

This past year, it has been soooo hard for me to get that old loving vibes back. Perhaps because I am getting older (yes, 25 can be considered old is some culture! *umpetin KTP*) or perhaps because I am just simply stop myself searching for the vibes. Dunno.

And as I said, these couple of months, things are getting clear. Perhaps of new fresh air, new challenges or new salary *wink* (you wish! in your dream!), but all I know the vibes are here. Slowly but sure. I just need to pull myself up together again and start believing in my brain to do her magic (I need a loooootttt of magic, dear brain. Pls help me!).

To my friends who read this post (and you know who you are), thanks for just being there and making fun of our brains. And to my friend who reminds me of the fact that I am 1 out of 3 out of 6000 applicants that made the cut, thanks :)

And how in love I want to be with what I am doing? Just look at FUN. when they perform their music. They look so damn happy when they sing and play the music. And that's where I aim to be. me and my job.

Galau episode seribu tiga ratus lima puluh empat

Tadi malam sebelum tidur, tiba2 si anak kicik ngomong: "Besok sekolah diantar mami ya..."
Dan tiba2 ada pedih di sudut hati (tsaaahh bahasanyaaa) when I slowly replied: "Mami besok ga bisa antar xiong2 yah, mami kan kerja, sayang..."

Dan setelah itu, anak kicikku masih berusaha negosiasi dengan kembali statement: "Besok diantar mami kok sekolahnya..."

Yah...sayah kembali galau sodara-sodara!!!

Working mom - to the next level

Next level dalam artian, dilema tingkat lanjut *hiks*
Jadi belakangan ini Ius sering banget pas pagi2 gw grabukan siap2 kerja, dia bilang: "Mami ga ganti baju, pakai baju ini aja"
Di logika polosnya dia, kalo gw ganti baju artinya yah gw berangkat kerja. Kalo gw pake baju tidur aja, gw akan di rumah sama dia. *mewek lah gw*
Walaupun pas gw tinggal berangkat kerja, dia ga nangis. Ius akan dengan manis nya dadah2 dan kissbye sama gw dan papinya.

Dan ini isi percakapan tadi pagi di walk-in closet ketika gw grabak grubuk dandan+ganti baju. Dan Ius berdiri perhatiin gw:

Ius: "Mami ga ganti baju. Masuk-masukin lagi aja (bajunya masukin lemari lagi maksudnya)"
Gw: "Mami kan harus kerja, sayang"
Ius: "Ga mami harus kerja"
Gw: "Kan mami kerja cari uang. Kalo ga kerja nanti mami gimana beliin Ius roti, susu, biskuit"
Ius: "Xiong2 udah punya otii kok. Oti (roti) warna coklat. udah ada kok..." (sambil senyum manis dan matanya polos liatin gw)

*byaaarr...jleb* pengen mewek rasanya saat itu juga TT____________TT

-Icarus, 2 years and 7 months old-

(Not) a usual Thursday

First of all, I forgot to apply mascara and it's not normal :)
Icarus was so cranky when I left him for work this morning. It has been sometimes since last time he cried seeing me off for the office.
My wedges is broken at the office, so now I am wearing sandals *___*

Gossh...what a morning.
But the cheese sticks brighten up the morning...they are delicious ^^